Long story short: Fell for a close friend who turned into a friend with benefits off and on for 3 years (not just sex, we had deep talks/nights out too). Made a fool of myself a few times ... pretty sure he knows how I feel and does not return it. I've never loved anyone this much ... I am 25 and have fallen before, but this is the worst yet. He took a semester several schools away and it got a bit easier, but he kept in contact enough that I couldn't move on.
He's getting ready to come back and I'm pretty sure he is involved with a girl from our hometown. She's young and pretty, but shallow, stupid, and known for running from guy to guy. The things I love him for don't ever matter to the girls he gets with. But anyway, I've got to face that this is going to be reality. How can I stop the way I feel? I've got to act like we're cool, because that's what is expected. I can't avoid him because most of our friends are the same. I don't have any friends to talk to, because none of them can know that I fell for him. I know that time will help, but its been years! Sometimes seeing him makes me feel so sick that I can't even enjoy the rest of the night. Any advice? Advice please! Messy love life! ?
need to find another man for yourself...........and will make things better
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