Why is my life like this? Please help/advice for me?

I'll be going in to high school in the fall. And I'm ashamed to say that I have no real friends. They all have boyfriends, and I don't, and they blow me off for them, they're not real friends, they're not reliable, they don't ask me to hang out with them. My brother and sister are close with eachother and I'm always the odd one out. And the thing is, is that this would all actually be somewhat believable if I deserved all of this. But I haven't done anything to get shitty friends. I have always been kind to them and asked them to hang out, never talked about them badly, and was a really reliable and trustworthy friend.





I also had a choice between a private catholic all girls high school with a better education or my local public high school with the lesser education... I picked the public one. And every time I seem to talk about it with someone I want to cry because I feel like I let everybody down and disappointed my parents... but it was my choice, and I honestly am so sick of people telling me that I made the wrong decision. I could always transfer. This is all so baffling to me though, sitting home every night of my summer becoming a high school freshman. Why don't I have any friends?





But sometimes when I'm alone, I just start to think about things and well, like... I believe that whatever I decide, in the end, it'll all be okay. And if it's not okay... then it's not the end... right?Why is my life like this? Please help/advice for me?
Hmm, well you don't deserve to be treated like **** and walked on. Just when you go back to school try to talk to new people make new friends.


%26amp;About the changing school thing, sit down and talk to your parents about it (:


Hope everything goes well.