How can i make this work? I f****** up big time and need advice before taking my life.?

Ok, i'm going to explain this clearly seeing that when i wrote the last one it was at 6AM and i haven't slept all night because of this.





Me and my bf have been dating for nearly for months, I love him a lot, I don't want to be with anyone else, but he keeps saying that there is someone better then him out there for me, but I want to be with him.





I went to the anime convention in london on Saturday and he said he would try to go. When he spoke to me on MSN he said he didn't want to go because he hates huge crowds of people, he knows I do as well as I have a sort of closterphobier when it comes to huge groups of people, if anything I wanted him to be there so I would feel less scared but also so I can see him.





When I told me friend that my bf didn't want to come because of huge groups of people he said ';I wouldn't care, I would come just to see you.'; This made me think that maybe my bf didn't want to see me. I told him what my friend had said, and also on what I thought which was ';I thought you didn't want to see me so I didn't question it.'; I told him that last night on the phone.





This didn't go down well, and he blew his top off saying ';You think I didn't want to see you?! Why? Of course I wanted to see you!'; But then I wondered why he didn't see me if he wanted to. I said sorry, but thats what I thought, by which he just said back. ';Don't be sorry. I give up, you don't show me love. Do what you want, I don't care anymore.';





This just tore right through me, he thinks I don't show him love. He knows I try to the best I can, he knows I can't show people how I feel about them well, why would he say something like that if he knows I have difficulty doing that.





What should I do? He said he loved me less since I said that, but I love him a lot. I just feel like that I should crawl under a rock and die, maybe he's trying to aim for me to do this? I think he'll be happier if I do. I've already shredded my arm because of him, already know how i'm going to commit suicide (slow and painful for a scumbag like me). He's making me feel like complete **** for something I was being honest about but I love him a lot, what should I do? I don't want to break up, it won't be healthy for me, if anything it'll end my life.How can i make this work? I f****** up big time and need advice before taking my life.?
First of all, explain to him what you meant. Talk to him and let him know what he's making you feel like. If he doesn't respond to that then he's a prick.





Second of all despite anything that happens don't kill yourself over this. Honestly, I've been there and I understand that it seems rational at the time but looking back I'm glad I never did it every time.





If all fails you still deserve to live, you will one day find someone who won't make you feel like **** over something stupid like that.





Ignore whatever bullshit anyone tells you on here about being a freak for feeling like this, I understand what it's like.How can i make this work? I f****** up big time and need advice before taking my life.?
maybe u should see a damn psychiatrist??
You need to CHILL THE F*CK OUT!!!
Hi there, I know how you feel, but you don't really want to kill yourself think about it you still got family and friends who love you and now you got someone to talk to. this bf you are talking about is just not ready for what is going on and where it's going. I know from experience that you can't make a guy love you, you can tell him how much you love him but if he doesn't feel it he never will. YOU have alot to live for you might not think so right now but you will. there is someone out there for you who will be there for you when ever you need him. HE WILL show up when you least expect it and from that day on he will always be there for you through all the good and bad that life throws at you. PLEASE stop and think and know that you are loved. friend from afar. hope to hear from you again.
first off it may be difficult but you have to learn to live your life without COMPLETE care for others.. learn to live on your own not needing someone there for you because right now you are in complete bondage to this guy.. in my life i taught myself that people will do anything to take away the things you love the most.. REMEMBER that everything in this life is TEMERAL( temperary) nothing is permanent until you make your way to heaven.. just like you i also have a hard time expressing myself and feelings.. dont kill youself you are TOO special to the lord to do that.. join the lord and he will help you.. i am simply just one of his followers trying to do his work.. hopefully my wisdom helped you out some have a blessed night
whoa dude calm down. why would u suicide for such a silly thing? you have a small problem with your boyfriend. its not a big deal. even if he broke up with you, why would that even be reason for suicide?
It's really unhealthy to tie up that much of who you are in someone else. You need to be happy being you and being yourself before you'll ever be happy with someone else.
I think you guys just have a lot of bad communication skills, but that give him no right to be such a jerk. Why should you feel bad? You should toughen up a little and give yourself more respect. I've been really down just like you, actually, a year ago over some stupid asshole. You just need to learn how to pull away a little more and not trust others so easily. Become more independent. Show him you're stronger by not harming yourself like this and/or ending your life.


Hey, it'll be okay. Quite focusing on him and just focus on you right now. Come on now. We know he ain't worth it, right?
My boyfriend and I have this kinds of fights all the time. The only way they settle for us is if we both decide to stop being stubborn and just apologize. Situations like these aren't worth dying over. Just talk to him, tell him exactly how you feel and speak to each other in a calm way. Good luck!
Situations like this are really hard. But The first thing i can suggest to you is to sleep on everything. I know it can be the hardest thing but take a hot shower and just sleep. In the morning call him and ask him to come over. If you care about each other then you should talk in person. let him know that it is really important.





If he should tell you he doesn't want to meet up then screw him. that's when you call your friends get some chocolate and cry it off.





Communication is so important and talking online or texting can sometimes make situations harder because it can be difficult to know what a person means by something.





Make sure that you write down your feelings tonight. and see how you feel in the a.m. If he ';loves you less'; over something you said then you should definitely talk.





Worst case scenario, you have to suck it up and move on, but by leaving him on your terms you can build so much confidence and find yourself someone that wants you more than him.





Good luck
Why would you end your life over a guy?


He's not worth it, people change within' time if he's not interested in you no more than he's not interested move on there's always a better guy, and I'm sure there are tons of guys out there that would love to have you there for them.
It sounds like he's a controlling jerk...and of course you can't see that, b/c love is blind!! You're way too dependent on him to complete your life..that's the real issue here...not him...he's never going to do the things you want him to do or give the reaction you want him to give...you're going to have a lifetime of heartache if you keep depending on him to make you happy....I think you need to be by yourself, and get your life straightened, and stop cutting yourself!
how about you just go to bed, and when you wake up in the morning all of this will be old news.








also, you guys seem toxic for each other. why be with someone who makes you feel worse about yourself?


AND i also wanted to add, he had a fit because he is insecure.
Me and my girl have been together a year june 1st but we broke up with eachother cuz we were fighting alot like 2 weeks straite but just to make our relationship stronger and work out and stop fighting and we still kiss and stuff and love eachother and we are getting back together soon. I love her to death she loves me to death. she tells me she wants to marry me and be with no one but me.
Although it feels the world would end if you both broke up. If anything, it would be healthier to break up, and seek the comfort of family and friends. you have to be stable when you are in a relationship, and if you cut yourself or say you are willing to end your like for him, you dont love yourself enough..and obviously not stable enough to love back. If he is saying that he gives up and doesnt care anymore, that should be your cue to move on. Trust me, there will more people to love. And that will love you back. Remember there was life before him and there is life after him. Dont ever make a guy your world because in the end..all you have is yourself fall back on.
wow. go to church, i think you need to have the saviours heart with you. and you have to start loving yourself the way you are. if it isn't destined to be with each other, you have to accept it, especially the way he's treating you. trust me, that 'GUY' is out there, and wondering the exact same thing as you. God has a plan, and you just have to wait it out a bit.





hope i helped,


kiani kahealani kapena.
it sounds like he's messing around and wants a way out. don't kill yourself over a stupid guy. that's just retarded and extremely weak. break up and find someone better
Oh sweetie... Don't end you life for this boy. If he doesn't realize that you are so wonderful and try to show him love then he isn't worth it! He obviously is deeply cruel, if he loved you the way you were suppose to be loved then he would have gotten you help because of your arms. Don't tell this to a bunch of strangers tell a professional. Don't take your life your worth so much more then that! God is with you pray too him :-)
Listen, suicide is the cowards way out. Hes not the only guy out there, there are more fish in the sea. Time for you to go fishing.Sounds like he is trying to say it's over. No man is worth cutting yourself. Get yourself someone who loves you for who you are not what you have.