Sigh...story of my life, anybody have some advice or can relate somewhat?

as I was growing, I barely have any friends, perhaps because of the ghetto area i grew up in, the hate and so forth...





I became somewhat of a shut-in because of my loneliness. Not alot of people really understand me and some would take one glance at me and misunderstand me, i suppose this is the reason why i don't like to communicate alot face to face sometimes..





i'm always somewhat worried about what others will think of me





anywaise...





I'm the oldest child and sometimes I would usually hear them talk to my siblings about not going out to hang out with friends and stuff.


I would sometimes tell my parents that they shouldn't be so strict to them because it was because they were strict on me that i barely go out and don't have any friends or know anybody.





of course my parents reaction was like


';you don't understand how it feels to be a parent and this sadness i have raising all of you';





and my usual responds to her would be calm and be like...


';yes, i understand. Trust me, I'm the one who knows sadness and sorrows the most. Why wouldn't I understand? Even if I don't have childrens, I do know what you mean. If I have a child of my own, i wouldn't want him or her to go out alot also because I will worry, but you are too over protected. I hate to use this example, but do you want my sister to turn out like me? Somebody who has no friends and always alone?';





wella...


yea, my mother thinks i'm a bad boy..............


hmm, i spend most of my life inside the house...


trying and wanting to please them





I'm sure I disappoint them alot because my grades are horrible back in school because of some love issues I been going through, but I'm not a bad person....





......well, in my life...


family misunderstand my good intentions...


love likes to break me for some reason..


and iono





..my life just seems really really dull





nomatter what you do, you're alwaise wrong...





so, what can I do to please everybody?





I'm 19 btw and almost 20.


My love life sucks as well because I been over 20 or 30 relationships and all these girls played on me.





I barely graduated highschool thanks to all my love issues. I'm a late graduate, but atleast I graduated....





yea, life sucks for me alot..


their alwaise seem to be a drama somewhere...


at home, at school or so so...





I don't drive yet because of my mess up life...


..barely even got a job, but atleast I got one now................


network marketing but...


yea.......


either way, i still feel really dull about life





..life is so bad for me...


accoma around birth..............


health issues,


love issues...


dramas everywhere and every day.............





i feel like a messup of a bit of everything..


k-drama life style*





does anybody live this kind of messup life?...


..anything similar?


or wat?





wat would u do if u were me?





...i know i probably would of commited sucide already if I letted my emotions get to me, but........


I ain't gonna let myself lose exspecially with this kind of life story...


so of course I won't give up, but yea..





i'm just curious what everybody else have to say...





if anybody think it can't get any worse...


i'm sure it will...


it alwaise does..





trust me, my life story has a bit of everything...


starting to piss me off





makes me wonder why me... :(Sigh...story of my life, anybody have some advice or can relate somewhat?
I know how you feel..


I'm 13, a complete loner when it came to school, no-one understood me, just like you, took one look and didn't do anything else.


im too strong for my age and end up hurting anyone i am friends with without realizing , so im stuck as a loner again.


recently i had to move away from school and everyone i know and start home teach, though some may have found it great, its actually really hard, im now living in a caravan..with no privacy or anything, i normally hear people talking about me, even behind my back or the other side of the room. its pretty hard..


i fee like i may have wasted some of my life..but there is still more to happen yet..


me myself, i always seem to be near tears, or really depressed


but what can i say? im a lonely child, with no-one to talk to..


I'm not religious.. so i don't know much about that, that can help.


i always tend to help people, just like you, but you have to help yourself before you help others, may sound easy - its not all that easy..





but all i can say, it asses the situation, try and understand whats going on, and take it one step at a time. everyone needs help sometimes.Sigh...story of my life, anybody have some advice or can relate somewhat?
lol I thought you were like 13. Then I keep reading and you're 20.





Time to grow up? :-o
One thing don't keep yourself drawn on that stuff. Go out start a new page of your life far away from anyone u know. Try to make your life not so dull :p





Cheer up kid! :D
i haven't gone through exactly what you have, but i know how it feels for you in some ways. i was a bit the same when i started high school. i was really self conscious of myself and i hardly spoke to people, hence i hardly had any friends for about 3 years of high school. i mean i talked to people, but none of them were really my friends. i always worried about what people though of me or what they actually said to me behind my back, that's why i never really spoke much.





i too had contemplated suicide as my family does nothing but fight with each other, and i'm always stuck between the two sides. my mother too keeps telling me to concentrate on study and study alone whenever i try to be by myself and have my alone time.





However i realized at one point that the world itself is the one that's screwed up, not me. i realized that no matter what you do there will always be someone who hates you and that's the fact of life. and so i thought 'well then screw everybody else, i'm gonna live my life the way i want it and if other people don't like it then its their problem and they can worry about it'.


i started acting the way i wanted, speaking my mind and saying what was on my mind. i didn't care if i didn't have any friends or what they would think of my words, and because of this i actually got to know some really good people. i realized that some people around me who i'd know since the beginning of high school was a lot like me and i got a long with them extremely well, even if i'm having a bad day and do nothing but *****.


you can't keep feeling sorry for yourself your whole life, or try to please everyone else around you because that will only make you miserable, trust me i have been there.





suicide is another thing that doesn't even cross my mind anymore because taking your own life is a sign of weakness, and actually living through hardships makes you a stronger person. maybe that's just because of my pride and i don't want to be though of as weak, but it does help.





i'm about to finish high school and i know i haven't studied as much as my parents wanted me to and if i fail they will be disappointed, i know that, but at least i tried, and even so i'm gonna follow my dream, and no matter how many times i fail or how many times people tell me i'm gonna fail, i'm not going to give up until i prove them wrong and accomplish what i want. anyone can do this if they really try.





i'm 17 myself, so we're both young and still have a lot of time to go. but as long as you try and you are yourself, then you should have nothing to worry about. no ones life is perfect, life sucks and it always will, but pull through and you'll be stronger that the rest.
Start going to church; a Bible Study.
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