Need some advice about sorting my life out!!?

Im 19 years old and seem to be making a mess of everything. I'll try explain what i mean without writing a HUGE essay.





I used to 'self harm' on and off from the age of about 11 to 18 years old. I've always been a nightmare with alcohol (generally drinking untill i pass out, puke, fall over ect). Don't have much self confidence and am quite shy in large groups, isolated myself for weeks at a time in the past and just refuse to go out. Generally i've not always done so well in life and wouldnt considered my last few years to be 'happy' atall.





I'm sounding a bit dramatic, sorry, i do realise it could be much worse but i just hav a horrible feeling about things now.





Anyway i got professional help for the self harm thing just over a year ago and my dr asked me to go to an alcohol problem clinic because i was in great danger of badly damaging my liver (casue i drank from such a young age and something to do with the blood tests). She also arranged councelling once a week for the self harm and i was going to see her about once every two/three weeks to see how things were.





Everything did start to improve and although i was still drinking far too much i did manage to stop the self harm early this year. My drinking also did decrease slightly and i've been managing to control how much i consumed (not getting to the point of passing out).





I went away for 3 months at the beginning of this year and broke my wrist whilst away so havn't been able to go back to work (therefor nothing to do with my life).


This week i've been far far too drunk on two occasions and this has scared me. I don't feel in control any more, my emotions are all over the place and i've just been randomly bursting into tears.





What can i do now?! I want things to go back to how they were when it was all improving. I still havnt self harmed but feel the way i did when i used to.





How can i fix all this?! I'll be seeing the councellor again next week and the alcohol Dr in a couple days, i think they'l be really dissapointed...i am!





My spellcheck isn't work and i'm typing with one hand (broken wrist) and generally cant spell anyway so sorry for this.





Any advice appreciated!Need some advice about sorting my life out!!?
a ittle set back is all ...we all need help from time to time


other therapies which can help are


spiritual healing and reiki


and karma therapy in fact study this and apply it ----of all therapies out there this controls all of them


From my research and inspiration I have led to a concept called karma and this seems to be the only thing stopping us from achieving , health wealth and happiness





Karma therapy


The orion project is for the Sharing of information . This information some of which has actively been submerged by vested interest parties more concerned with profit/power rather than your health .


Following the principles outlined in the Orion project will lead you to real wealth=health.


One of the most powerful allies to any person is to know about karma therapy for if you understand this you can even





Avoid getting health or wealth or happiness problems





Or if you currently have problems in those areas





Give you the most effective tool, which I have come across to help you alleviate them.





This is the tool





The value of giving


Putting something or some service into society is one of the most transforming tools with which we all benefit . The value of it is much higher than we can possibly know and it should be included as part of everyone鈥檚 health program. The giver may ask how will helping others help my health and me! That is a very good question, which is very worthy of a serious amount of thought. This touches on the concept which is called karma .





For if one truly wants to live with the great allies of Health, wealth, happiness, Love and all those effects which one values one should really understand this concept. It is the only thing, which explains the apparent randomness of the effects, which come upon people.





Effects are all aspects of health, Wealth, Richness, [note these two are separate] Happiness etc.


What is karma? Put simply it is the law of cause and effect. Or put as another way as you sow so shall you reap, or what goes around comes around. What do we mean by sowing? Simply every action or deed you do causes an effect and every thought causes an effect.





So if you have sown good deeds as in helping others, being of service, giving love and Kindness for lengthy periods of time you can expect to reap those seeds. Alternatively if we have sown other deeds and thoughts of a hurtful nature we can expect problems of one nature or another to beset us.





Edgar Cayce frequently mentioned in treating disease that we were working against karma and frequently told people that they would get well faster by helping others.





Ah you may say why is it that babies are sometimes born with so many impediments; they have not sown wrongful acts.





Yes they have not in this lifetime but what about their previous lives as in reincarnation. You may not wish to go into this subject at this time but there are millions of references to it, some in the bible and a lot of eastern religions, some people can actually remember their past lives.





There is now even past life regression therapy used in hypnosis to treat phobias, which are not connected with this lifetime.





now listen to this next concept really carefully


If we are unwell and by implication therefore suffering from past seeds sown it follows therefore one of the fastest ways to get well is to incorporate into your treatment plan service or giving to somebody as often as you can .





Ask for opportunities to be of service .I have proved this concept on a daily basis and feel that this concept is so important in all types of healing and to achieve other effects like having friends ,enriching experiences, money and other effect which we all need.





Just a few examples of how we can be of service 鈥揼iving Sharing our being, our wealth, sending our thoughts, giving to charity, sharing a joke, uplifting someone, giving listening time, giving healing, giving labour, giving love, giving entertainment, giving food, giving information and a million more ways.


Edgar cayce gave many thousands of examples of karma at work ,he even told one person who asked to be healed that to cure him of this thing would be to no avail as another would surely come .





As you can see from this statement the man has got to work it off ,this apply to us all and its not just health either that this applies to .Virtually every effect you can name .





All is seen ,all is heard, all is felt.





The wise among you will take the attitude of discovering the areas of service you have to make amends on before effects of ill health reach you whether it be cancer, Parkinson鈥檚 blindness or what have you.





So I strongly advise that you engage in some kind of voluntary work and I believe that virtually everyone should be engaged in some kind of healing practice for others preferably on a daily basis.





how to discover this?





Well I suggest you pray to be shown or ask the universe to reveal it to you.


reveal the areas wNeed some advice about sorting my life out!!?
Don't blame yourself. Anyone who had the anxious feelings and the moods that you have would be in the same situation. We are all different, but we all tell ourselves to do the right thing and we all keep falling short of being perfect.





Tell yourself that you have the right to talk to a doctor and to see a psychotherapist, because you absolutely do.





I have a little anxiety and it's awful so I'm sure that having a lot is even worse.





Reassure yourself that anxiety means that everything is actually much SAFER than you think it is. Where there might be a risk, though, is in drinking, which causes even the wisest person in the world to temporarily have very poor judgment. So avoid that if you can. Go to the alcohol counsellor with an open mind. Sometimes own brains betray us and make us feel absolutely terrible for no reason at all. Fight back by feeling good. Fight back by forgiving yourself. Fight back by being as healthy as you possible can. Forget alcohol. Get the good feelings you need from working and having fun with good people, and by finding a job that makes you happy, and by finding sports or other activities that distract you from all of your moods.





Have faith that, even though you can't make everything perfect, you -can- make everything better, especially if you can find smart doctors and demand that they give you smart advice.





By the way, your spelling is almost flawless. :)
(1) Keep seeing your counselor and keeping talking, even if it is hard to do because it really helps you sort out and think through these tough thoughts.


(2) Go to the alcohol program like she says because you are making progress, even if it doesn't seem like it every minute.


(3) Try to remember to say something positive to yourself or to someone else once a day, no matter how minor. Negative feelings can be dispelled somewhat by positive thoughts and words.


Good luck! Lots of us out here know what you're going through are hoping the best for you.


Oh yeah, I almost forgot, remember that feeling low is normal when you're healing up during and after an injury. Your body is using its resources to heal and being out of commission due to the injury is just a downer. Plus, pain killers can have a depressive effect that can take a while to shake. Once you're back in the saddle you'll feel better mentally too.
You have had a setback but try not to think of it as a failure,everyone who is recovering from mental health problems has a setback somewhere along the way,i certainly do and i find the more you beat yourself up over it the harder it is to get things on track again.





Be honest with your councillor and doctor,its their place to help you above being disappointed and to find ways to help you recover again,you still haven't self harmed which is a huge achievement considering how low you feel and you should be proud of that.





Take small steps,don't rush it,and see if you can find a new way to deal with things with the help of your dr and councillor.
Hi


Firstly congratulations on coming so far, to stop self harming is a great achievement in itself. You are having to deal with several issues at one time which is never easy and setbacks do happen. We get so used to living life one way to change it all seems like a huge mountain to climb. However you have already proved yourself to be a great mountaineer. You have got half way up and taken a short break that's all. It is time to take a deep breath and continue your climb to the top. You have not failed. Your team are there to help you not to judge you. You may feel disappointed but they will not see that in you, that is not their job. Often when we have to much time on our hands our brain goes into overdrive and allows our thoughts to run wild, and one thought feeds off another then another etc. It is very easy for this to happen. Can you remember what started the need for you to consume so much alcohol. People who drink to the point of passing out usually do so in order to block out the pain, the point I am getting at is if you find the trigger for your drinking, then you are on the way to stopping. Deal with the underlying issues behind the reason you started to drink. The rest will then fall into place. It is not easy as it is an addiction, one you have to break free of, but you can do it, you have already proved yourself to be determined and a fighter. Remember what has gone before you and what lies ahead of you is nothing compared to what lies within you. Well done once again and good luck.
Its true that my advice won't be extraordinary besides the other replies and advices - especially that I'm 14 and not willing to ever drink - but I liked you and I feel like helping you even by wishing you a better life but I'm going to throw pieces of advice as well .


It sounds really hard to live like this but I'm sure that you'll get pass this !


I think you might need to talk more and get over your shyness a little bit just try , trying is better than nothing . Find the right person to stick with and be friends , later on tell her/him your problems little by little and by a month or so you'll feel a whole lot better .I can't guarantee you to become the happiest girl alive but believe me it does help because I used to keep it all in never tell anyone about my feelings . I found out the right person to tell my problems and everything that bothers me %26amp; trust me the hours that I spend with this person are the most precious hours of my day !


Try changing some routines %26amp; trying new stuff , %26amp; whatever you do do NOT feel weak and feel like your going down again and that you won't be able to control yourself again , etc.


Sorry for the long advice %26amp; I wish I could help you more but I'm not sure if this will help you anyways .


Last , I just would like you to know that I'd be honored to become your friend and I wish you a better life and have a nice day - trust me you deserve it ! =)
You have had a bit of a relapse, that's ok your only human and these things happen, just accept this has happened and take today as a fresh day, each day is a new day. Just remember that you are in control of you no one else, you can make things work the you want them to. I am in counselling at the moment and i am finding it really useful, sometimes I come away feeling quite deflated and like it hasn't really made a difference but I always try to pull one singular thing out of every session and make small changes with it. Life can be really difficult for so many people for some many reasons but I would guarantee that you have loads of positive aspects to you and your personality, try to think back to how you felt about yourself when things started to improve. Just reading this tells me yours a strong person you are determined and strong willed you have the ability to set your self a goal and go for it, you did it you have the skills and abilities to be able to do it what ever it is you want. Just remeber if you have done it once then you can do it again a small relapse does not mean that you have to start all over again it means you have learnt that you can do it and you can do it again. Sorry for the babbling that i tend to do but when you read so many issues about so many people for so many different people it makes me sad because i truely belive everyone is a good person just sometimes it takes a lot longer for us to learn, understand and appreciate who we are before we can accept that live is for living. I hope I have been of some help to you - Good luck to you and keep positive.